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Saturday, May 16, 2009

Stare

The sound was blasting thru the walls of the all girls' school St. Bernadette's for their senior farewell ball.  Their brother, all boys' school senior class of St. President was there to celebrate with them.

While everyone was having fun and being with their boyfriends/girlfriends and close friends, there was one guy who was sitting on the bleachers just staring at a girl that caught his eyes as soon as he arrived.  

The girl was petite, height was just right for him, a beautiful smile and a very nice laugh.  She was wearing a tube like blue silk gown, that complimented her very sexy figure and tanned smooth skin..... like his.... 'we are perfect' he thought.

He slowly approached her, not minding the girls that says 'hi' to him nor classmates, his eyes were directly on her. He wants to know who she is before the night ends. He thinks that she is his 'Cinderella' and he is her 'Prince Charming.'  

As he reached her, she turned his way, and both stared into each other's eyes.

"I'm Keii." sticking out his hand.

"I'm Rye." clasping her hand into his without breaking each other's eye contact.

He didn't let go of her hand, she didn't even try.  Both were too caught up in each one's presence that everyone and everything seemed to vanish, and they were in their own alter universe.


'Ring! Ring! Ring!'

"Shit!!!!!"  He smacked his alarm, making it land on the ground. Good thing that the floor was carpeted.  He stretched his arms, and stood up feeling annoyed, for his damn alarm cut his beautiful dream.

He has been dreaming of the same thing for more than a week now since he saw, who looks like the girl he met that senior night on his university campus.  He has been trying to find her after that night.  And since he forgot to get her last name, he was unsuccessful for the past three years. But a week ago, a girl, almost the same features as Rye, he saw, made him recall the girl that he has been looking for. Her back was on his, and he was about to be late on his exams, that he wasn't able to see the face.

Keiichiro Koyama, more known as Keii to his friends and family is already on his senior year in college.  He was a patient and happy guy. He is easily contented at what he has, but his heart, it's a different story.  After meeting Rye that night at their senior ball, he never forgot her. He always longed for her. He never got to have a girlfriend in the university for his heart was already captured by her.

And after that day that he saw a girl that might just be Rye, his head never stopped looking around campus to spot that figure again.  And maybe this time he will be able to catch her and be with her.


Another week went by.  He was sitting on one of the grass part of the campus grounds when a girl suddenly stopped in front of him.  He was currently reading a school material when she blocked his sunlight.

"Excuse me, but your blocking my sun."  he said irritably to the person.

"I never thought you could be this grumpy."  she replied.

He looked up.  But the suns light was too bright that he can't see the girls face, only like a shadow.

She laughed at him. "I can't imagine your eyes can be much smaller, but still cute. Even if you frown like that.  And to think you still look as handsome as ever."

"I'm sorry, do I know you?"

"Hey, don't you raise your eyebrow at me. Mine has much better arch that yours." laughing more.

"Ok that is not funny. Can you go away now if you will just say weird things? I don't want to be rude to you miss, but you are definitely not making any sense."  he gathered his things and stood up not looking at the girl.

His back was already facing her when she spoke again. "I'm Keii. Then you stuck your hand out..." he immediately froze from his standing position. "Then I took your hand and gave you my name. Then we looked into each others eyes for along time before we finally danced like we were the only ones on the gymnasium dance floor."

He couldn't believe what he was hearing. He never spoke of it to anybody. Nobody knew about that night among his current friends. Nor he dare tell about his dreams.

He finally turned around and saw his the face of the young girl. He was so surprised to see the face he longed for.

"Rye?"

"Yup, the one and only." smiling at him with pink cheeks.

He ran to towards her only to stop right in front. Faces only a few centimeters apart. He took her hand and smiled from ear to ear. She was smiling at him as well.  They stared at each other again for a long time. The stare that they shared on the night of their senior ball. And everything and everyone disappeared again.

After what seemed a long time, that he finally broke their silence.  But the eye contact never wavering.

"Rye..."

"Hhmm"

"Can I have your last name? So I can easily find you if you don't give me your address or number."

"It's Nishikido."

Friday, May 15, 2009

Who is it Really? 3/?


Myles went to the store to get the supplies needed at their resort. She paid by card that is already in her pocket. When she got to her car, she took out the ticket for the parking that she needs to pay for. When she was about to take her wallet out, she noticed that it wasn’t in her bag. She dug her bag thoroughly but found nothing. She can’t remember where it could have fallen. Then she thought that I might have fallen when she was being harassed by the guys from the mall. But she really can’t tell if it happened there. Now she is going to drive without a license. There was no other choice but to go back inside the mall to find her wallet. Their house was still too far to drive without a license. 
Myles immediately went to the information center to ask if someone surrendered her wallet. Even if the money wasn’t there, the important thing was her identifications, but there was no luck. She tried tracing back where she went inside the mall. Still no luck. She was about to give up when her phone rang...

Myles: (hhmm? Unknown number?) Hello?
Guy: Is this Myles Robles?
Myles: Yes, this is she. Who’s this?
Guy: Konichiwa!
Myles: Konichiwa? Who is this?
Guy: Myles... Maru desu.
Myles: Maru? Nande?
Maru: Ano... Nakamaru Yuichi-san desu...
Myles: OOHHH!!!! Gomen! Watashi.... ano...
Maru: Hahaha... it’s ok... are you surprised?
Myles: I never thought that you would call... ano...
Maru: Really? Nande?
Myles: Ano... nevermind.... what can I do for you?
Maru: (approaching Myles from behind) I think you are looking for this.
Myles: Looking for what?
Maru: (tapped Myles at the shoulder and shuts his cell) This...
Myles: (turned around who tapped her.... and shocked that it was Maru) OOHH!!
Maru: Gomen... I didn’t mean to surprise you.
Myles: Iie... I just thought that I lost this. I came back to look for it. Thought that it might have fallen somewhere. I need my driver’s license.
Maru: When I saw this, you’ve already disappeared in the crowd. I thought I’ll just call you later.
Myles: Arigato!... Domo Arigato...
Maru: (always smiling) It was nothing. We were in the pants store and noticed you. I thought you already left, but you looked kind of familiar from afar. When I took a good look at the girl, I immediately recognized you.
Myles: (blushing a little) thank you again...
Maru: Are you still in a hurry? I’d like to have coffee with you, if it’s possible.
Myles: I’d love that, demo, I have to get home. I have a hard time driving when it starts to get dark. Gomen...
Maru: Iie, Iie... it’s ok. 
Myles: Kedo, I have one question...
Maru: Ok, what is it?
Myles: What are you guys doing here? I mean, I didn’t hear any news that you will be having a concert here or something...
Maru: Oh... we’re just having our vacation... We can’t have it in Japan... too many people or should I say papparatzzi’s around. Trying to find out who, if, we are dating or something.
Myles: I see. But I have read somewhere that you can’t right?
Maru: Can’t what?
Myles: You know? Date girls while you were still idols...
Maru: Oh... yeah, that’s right... but since we are nearing our thirties, we can. But it has to be approved by the agency so that there will be some scandal control if possible.
Myles: I see... well, if you have time, call me and I’ll treat you guys by letting you stay at the resort. We have a few pools and lots of indoor sports amenities. I mean, if the others are interested. If not, you can come solo, it’s ok too. I think, I mean, I feel they don’t like me too much.
Maru: No, they are just like that. They just want to get some rest. That’s all. But I'll call you regarding your offer. We still be staying here for a week so I’ll get our host to take me to your resort if the others doesn’t want to come.
Myles: No, I mean, no need. I’ll come pick you up myself. I mean, it’s the least I can do for helping me our earlier and returning my wallet. 
Maru: Ok then, it’s a date... (smiling)
Myles: (blushing...) Ok, I’ll just wait for your call. See you soon... bye...
Maru waved goodbye when Ueda found him smiling like an idiot.

Ueda: Hey, what are you smiling at? And where have you been? We’ve been looking for you in the store when you just disappeared into thin air.
Maru: Oh... I saw Myles and returned her wallet.
Ueda: What wallet?
Maru: Never mind... She just invited us to their resort as a thanks for helping her out earlier. Wanna come?
Ueda: But we are already staying in a resort, what difference will it make if we go there. We are almost burned from swimming for the past two days.
Maru: If you don’t want to come, you don’t need to explain. Anyway, I’m going by myself.
Ueda: Wait, aren’t you going to ask the others?
Jin: Ask us what?
Kame: Where have you been? We thought you got lost or something.
Koki: Yeah... you didn’t tell anyone you will be just HERE!
Junno: And what’s with the face?
Maru; What about my face?
Junno: Blushing and smiling non-stop. Are you ok?
Maru: Yeah... I just got a date.
Jin: Who?
Koki: Spill....
Maru: Myles Robles....
Kame: Are you ok? She doesn’t look like the girls that you fantasized back home.
Jin: Not even close.
Maru: Hey, hey!!! Back off! I like her. And she was definitely right in her sense.
Junno: Right about what?
Maru: She feels that you guys don’t like her.
Jin: We didn’t say we don’t like her. We just said she doesn’t look like the girls that you like. That’s it.
Junno: Anyway, what is it that you wanted to ask us?
Ueda: Myles invited us to their resort, and Maru said that he will go even if we don’t.
Kame: Why?
Maru: I want to see her again, obviously that’s why...let’s just talk about this over dinner. I think I hear Junno’s stomach growling....

Who is it Really? 2/?





Myles was inside a mall, just looking around. Because of what she looks like, she is attracted to people who likes to bug her by saying mean things to her. But today was different. She wasn’t just bugged by words, but now, she is being physically harassed by some younger guys inside the mall. She really doesn’t know how to react cause she wasn’t really a violent person, the least. But when she was about to react, a guy came over and told them to bug off. When she turned to look at the guy, she was so shocked, that she almost fainted from where she was standing. It was Nakamaru Yuichi of KAT-TUN. Myles thought... “what is he doing here?” 
On the other hand, Maru was with the other members of his group shopping a little because they were on vacation. They were inside a sports store when they heard the racket outside. The all took a look, but Maru was the only who looked at the happening clearly. When he saw the a group of boys were harassing a girl, he went out to give a hand. The others just stood for a while and see where Maru was going.

Maru: What do you think you guys are doing?
Boy 1: Why do you acre? Besides, this is none of you business.
Maru: I’m making this my business, now bug off!
Boy 2: Why, do you know this girl? She nothing...
Maru threw a punch at the boy. The boy fell down on the ground. Just then, Tanaka Koki appeared...
Koki: I wouldn’t do that if I were you. 
Koki gave the boy his scary look, while Myles was just standing the looking at the current situation. Shocked, scared, shaking, all at the same time. She just can’t believe that the people that helped her was Maru and Koki. When the boys tried to come back to fight the two, the other members showed up, Taguchi Junnosuke, Ueda Tatsuya, Akanishi Jin and Kamenashi Kazuya. They were a lot taller than the five boys, so they all backed off and ran away. Myles was still staring at them like a moron. She, literally, couldn’t move. Her jaws were almost at the ground from shock. Maru came close to her and asked how she was....

Maru: Miss, are you ok?
Myles just stood there, still...
Maru: Miss?
Koki: Maru, I think she in shock. Maybe we should get her something to drink. Junno go buy some water or something.
Junno: Ok... (then ran off)
Kame: Miss, I think you should sit down for a while. (Leading her to a chair)
Jin: Miss... what’s your name? Are you ok?
Maru: She’s still in shock.
Junno: Here... (giving the water to Maru who sat beside Myles)
Maru: Miss, here drink this. Then maybe you can tell us your name.
Myles drank the water. Took some deep breaths before speaking.
Myles: Mina, Arigato...
They all looked at her, shocked that they thanked her in Japanese. Then Maru finally spoke... (Let’s pretend that now they are all speaking in Japanese)
Maru: It’s ok. Those guys doesn’t know how to respect their Nee-chan or Okasan because they harasse girls. Anyway, what’s you name?
Myles: Myles desu... Arigato, Maru-san.
Maru: So you know me?
Myles: Hai! So is Koki-san, Junno-san, Ueda-san, Jin-san, and Kame-san. (smiling weakly)
Maru: Wow! You are the first to tell us you know us. Other people doesn’t.
Myles: That’s because you are here in the province. Not many here listens to foreign songs. In the city, there might be a lot of girls who knows you guys, specially Jin and Kame because of Gokusen 2.
Kame: So, yoou saw that jdorama?
Myles: Yup. I have my own dvd. It’s not original yet cause they aren’t selling the originals here yet. Still waiting for my order from Japan.
Kame: Oh...
Myles: Kedo, watshi hoping that Japanese dramas and movies will be released here soon.
Then Myles phone suddenly rang... it was her father.
Myles: Moshi moshi... I mean, hello dad.
Dad: Where are you? Aren’t you coming hoome yet?
Myles: I’m sorry. I’ll be home in a few hours. I haven’t bought all the supplies need for the resort.
Dad: Ok. Just hurry up coz a lot of people will be staying overnight at the resort today.
Myles: Yes dad. I’ll be home soon. Love you. Bye...
Koki: Is you otosan looking for you?
Myles: Yes. Well, I have to go now. Arigato.
When Myles was just about to leave... she gave Maru her business card.
Myles Robles, GM of Seabass Resort and Hotel. Her cellphone and address was also written there. She bid farewell again, then left. Almost running away from them. As Maru was reading the card, the other guys went back inside the sports store. Just as maru stood up, she saw that Myles left her wallet on the bench. But when looked around for Myles, she already disappeared and no where in sight. Junno appoarched Maru who saw him standing there with the wallet in his hand.

Junno: She left her wallet?
Maru: I guess she was so surprised to see us and the mmm that she got from before, that when she took out her cell she didn’t noticed that sher wallet fell on the bench.
Junno: Are we gonna look for her?
Maru: No need, she gave us her card so we can just contact her later.

Who is it Really? 1/?





Others: I really don't know how to start this, coz most of my post were just basically my feeling and stupid stories that comes into my head. So basically I don't know if what I am doing right now is right...

Disclaimer: this is just fiction, none of this are true...

It has been a year since Myles first met KAT-TUN in person. Myles Robles was a little small for her age. She was only 5'2" in height and a little chubby, wears glasses and doesn't really care what she wears or how her hair looks like. As long as it was bundled together, and no loose strands hanging in front of her face. She came from one of the countries on SouthEast Asia Just like KAT-TUN, but she was a little older than them. About 5 years than Nakamaru Yuichi, who was the oldest among the guys.

Myles was sitting in front of her laptop computer looking at the pics of her past. Then out of no where, she thought of how she met KAT-TUN. The group which she likes when she was still back in her own country. She first saw Akanishi Jin and Kamenashi Kazuya while watching Gokusen 2 in her room. She thought that the two were good looking guys. So she found the cover of the DVD she was watching and looked for the names of the two and then looked it up in the internet. That's when she found out the two came from a group called "KAT-TUN." She looked for every info she can find. She found everything from names, b-days, zodiac and blood type. She thought.."even blood types are in the info sheets? Now that's really weird." And found that they were from JE and found other members as well. 

That's how she started to get hooked on the JE boys, specially KAT-TUN. She thought that... "that agency has alot of good looking guys. Why weren't none of those cute guys live anywhere near here?" She started looking into the songs of the JE boys, but found that she really likes the songs of KAT-TUN the most. (Not being one-sided, but it is true! I like their songs most, and a little of the others.) Myles even studies how to read and speak Japanese. Myles was a really studious kind of girl. And in a short months, she learned the basics she needs to communicate with KAT-TUN, if the time comes, that she will be able to go to Japan to meet them personally.